Friday, December 30, 2011

This I my wish for all my blogger friends! Happy 2012!

"Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course?
Each of us has such a bank. It's name is TIME.
Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose.
It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.
If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "tomorrow."
You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success!
The clock is running!! Make the most of today.

To realise the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.

To realise the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realise the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realise the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realise the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who just missed a train.

To realise the value of ONE SECOND, ask someone who just avoided an accident.

To realise the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask the person who won a silver medal at the Olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have! And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with. And remember time waits for no one.

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why its called the present. "

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Yes, I have been MIA, I was supposed to move to another state.. I packed my whole house, all for nothing... The apartment we were supposed to move in didnt work out in the end. Now I have a packed house which i have to unpack...sadly! Gelson ( husband) will go without us now to work and we will stay till we are able to rent another apartment. Gosh Im sick of all this moving around! The uncertainty is killing me, Im beat, Im tired, Im giving up... Im desperate all i want, all i want is peace of mind....of spirit. Im broken and cannot be fixed. If only I knew where the roads I taken would lead me to when I was younger, fuck yea I would have changed paths!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Lost in you
Lost in me
For all the words spoken
For every untaken action
The fate we chose, will remain
Should we just accept the consequences
With no thought of change?

Friday, August 19, 2011

According To Urban Dictionary


"A funny girl, really smart, and usually doesn´t act her age (wether it be acting older or younger.) Jennifer´s have amazing eyes, and love to laugh and smile. They generally enjoy the finer things in life. They have trouble showing their feelings, and take sometime to warm up to new people. They don´t trust easily, but that shouldn´t stop you from trusting them, they are very trustworthy. They need someone who will listen to them and give their honest opinion. Jennifer´s are very blunt, and speak their mins often. They are caring and usually very sexy. They know how to flirt in a very suddle way that drives men crazy. They know how to get what they want. Jennifer´s are very good friends."

That´s what my name means according to Urban Dictionary...what does it say about your name?
Go and check it out it´s fun, let me know if its true for you :)



I like to think of myself as a judge free type of person, and in most cases I am. Of course I have my moments that without even thinking it through I might judge someone else...but i always regret and repent. For others to judge people like its their right as if they are better than someone beyond me. Clearly I don´t agree with everyone´s actions or choices but I respect them all the same (so long as its not causing harm to others.) Wouldn´t it be wonderful if we could just remain judge free? There are so many people worried about other people´s lives, and what for? Are they just bored with their own lives that they feel the need to talk crap about others? I say before pointing a finger at others, take a look at you own life.. but thats just me.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Such is me

Like a caged bird,
A held back smile,
An unshed tear,
A repressed desire,
Such is me, trying to break free,
Freedom to fly high and far
Freedom to laugh as hard as I can
Freedom to cry all my unshed tears
Freedom to seek and achieve all my desires.
Such is me, trying to break free..
If I could be an animal, an eagle I would be!

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Oh yea, thats right!

I will be all by myself for 3 dayssss!!!! I will not have to cater to anyone else´s needs, only my own!!!!
Big PlAnS, big PlAnS I AM sooooo SIKED!!!!!!!!! I will tell you every thing that i do in these 3 days! Just a BTW I DO LOVE my family!!!! Though I´m looking forward to some ME time =) YAY!

There will be a lot of sleeping
There will be a lot of eating
There will be a lot of watching TV
There will be a lot of surfing the net
There will be a lot of talking with friends
There will be a lot of reading

Doesn´t this move you?!

Sitting in my car waiting for my husband to buy his so wanted car radio, I saw something very moving happening outside. It´s a cold saturday morning and this man is out with his 3 little girls collecting recyclables. Before I tell you about this scene that I so happen to witness, I need to explain something; here in Brazil there are many people who go out collecting recyclabes they have this wagon/cart they use to put it all, they  litterally pull wagons/carts all day despite the weather in order to feed their families.

This is what I´m talking about, here they call them "catadores."
This is not the picture of the man I´m talking about.
 Well now you can better understand why this was so moving to me. This is what I saw.... The man parks his wagon on the side of the street so he can collect the recyclables people have left out, his three little girls run into this bakery to ask for food, and they come out empty handed. The girls are about 8, 6 and 3 they are wearing clothes that they have long outgrown  (and it is cold!) Their father  hold their hands to cross the street, the youngest two go with him and the oldest one stays behind with the cart. She picks up this blue dress; that I assume someone gave her, and with the biggest smile she puts the dress in front of her little 8 year old body and she dances with joy, she was litterally dancing. A worker from the bakery comes out and gives her a bag with 3 sandwiches. When the father comes back the oldest girl hand each of her sisters a sandwich (she had some trouble handing the sandwich because their dog wanted to grab it from her hand.) The youngest girl tries to give her father a piece and he refuses, but after much persistence he finally takes a little bite of the sandwich. The father starts pulling the wagon and they leave that street.

The whole time the girls had smiles on their faces, as sad I as I was to see them it was when I looked at their father that my heart broke. I could see the pain in his face...all I could see was pain....and of course the love and care he had for his children. Yes it was the love he had for them that made him suffer. Every parent want whats best for their children.....


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Birds are chirping!

I took it this morning! this lil guy might just be the reason i woke up in a good mood !!
Its funny how most of the time I wont remember what i wore the previous day, what I did, what I ate, who I saw, but I´ll remember things from waaay back in the day. I was talking to a friend about 9/11 and we both remembered exactly what we were doing when it happened.... and I realized that everyone I have talked to about that day remembers exactly what they were doing! Memory is a funny thing, some repress unwanted memories (without inteding to!), some like myself work real hard on remembering the good memories and forgetting the not so good! Sometimes a smell will trigger a memory, sometimes its a song, how amazingly complex our mind is!!!

Well enough of that, for the simpler things in life now... I woke up at 7AM today! YAY me! You see I´m not a morning person so i´m  excited I woke up early with...

wait for it....
wait for it...

A GREAT MOOD! I´ll be able to get sooo many things done in the morning! I wont be rushing like a maniac this morning :) I´m in such a great mood that I think, actually I know I will make a lasagna for lunch =) Dont know what it is but i woke up in a great mood and full of hope...Just plain happy or content? Dunno but its a gReAt feeling!!! Sooo GOOD MORNING TO ALL!!!!

View from my back yard !

Sunday, July 17, 2011

I wanted..

Growing up I wanted to be a lot of things, but these are the ones that I really ReAlLy wanted...

Okay so instead of Captain America pretend it says Jennifer Papps :)
Being an FBI agent was the first thing I remember I wanted to be....I still remember the day this police officer came to our school on career day, and I remember thinking yes thats what I want! I want to be a detective and work for the FBI.

Then I remember becoming obsessed with the night sky/outer space.... so I decided I wanted to be an astronaut.

Yes, then came acting
Later on I decided I wanted to try acting... I mean who wouldnt want to be someone else?! I could be anyone!!! I could have many different professions, live in many different places, learn and live in so many different cultures...

Finally I wanted to be a writer

I found that If I became a writer all my dreams could come true, all that I ever wanted..I could create I could write! I could be an FBI agent,  an astronaut, an actress anything I wanted I could have through my writing. The opportunities would be endless!

Monday, July 11, 2011


Hey dear blogger friends! I love reading your blogs...and i like commenting on it as well, but it seems
like blogger is having some technical difficulties because i cant seem to comment it sends me to the login page every time! But if you have the option of name and URL on your blog then it makes it easier to comment! And its easy you just go to settings, then comments and change your options of who can comment to anyone! I have been trying to comment on the blogs that I follow! so to all the blogs that I follow, sorry I havent been able to comment, I have been reading it and I love it and I wanted to comment but couldn´t. :/

Jennifer Papps

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Go Jennifer, Go Jennifer ...Its your birthday, its your birthday !

Hello dear blogger friends! Today its my special day...(well along with 9 million other people) Today is the day I was born :) 26 years ago at around 4PM in Secaucus, NJ. In these mere 26 years I have made many mistakes, but it was through them that I matured and grown as a person. It seems like I lived a 100 years all within the 26. I dont mean that I have gained a 100 yrs worth of wisdom just that i  have lived through sooo many experiences.

Last night while staring at the beautiful night sky I realized something.....the reason some of my dreams/wishes didnt come true is simply because it doesnt exist. There is no such thing as happily ever after.. no such thing as soul mates. Everything in life takes hard work and a lot of compromising to work out.

So Im ready to work, Im ready to compromise but im still not ready to let go of my dreams and hopes :)

I will not take for granted my life
I will not take for granted my family
I will not take for granted my friends
I will not take for granted all that I have been blessed with!
I will live, I will fight, I will not give up or give in.

And most importantly I will always have fun...specially TODAY !  :D

I will post a pic of me later on tonight :) me celebrating my B-DAY!!!!!
Happy Reading
Happy writing!!!

Friday, July 1, 2011

From me to you---edited with pic now :)

I wanted to share with all of you a song that is soo very special to me because its our song =) Our being mine and my beautiful, awesome, loyal, coolest best friend Brie! Love you girl!!!! We have some stories to tell dont we? But we made it through together! I know I woldnt have survived without you by my side! I know what a true friendship is...its what we have and will always have in eachother, a true friend! Though we are oceans apart, my love grows as does the pain from being apart from you....but you are always in my heart and thoughts!!
Brie´s blogspot (soooo funny)
Me and Brie...80s night!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

A dream of mine

Have you ever been afraid to fail? I think most of us have right?! It has always been a dream of mine to write a book, a few months ago I had what I think is a great idea for a book. I told my sister and some friends about it and they seem to agree, I have already written the outline. I was putting it off because (and this is what I kept telling myself) I didnt have time as a full time mommy and also working nights it was hard to find the peace and quiet and more importantly the time to write. Recently this scenario changed, I am now a stay at home mom and my kids go to school....but i find myself afraid to start writing; because?! Im afraid for two major reasons:
  1. ´That I won´t be able to write (that I´ll have writer´s block before I even begin.)
  2. That it won´t be as good as it is in my head
Failing to write this book will have a major impact on me, it will mean the end of my dream.
My dream to be a writer, to have written a see once I try to make my dream a reality then it will no longer be a dream.... does that make sense???

Happy reading
Happy writing!!

Monday, June 27, 2011


This weekend we went to the farm as planned, what we didnt plan for was the nasty weather! It was cold and it was rainning so we didnt go to the waterfall as we had originally planned :/
We brought this couple with us to the farm, they are good friends of ours. They were ready to do some serious walking as was I (or so i thought.) Our friends and my husband were waiting for me by this wooden gate and as I was walking towards them I noticed that my feet were no longer touching the ground, noooo they were up in the air as I had slipped on the mud, my first reflex was to put my hands on the ground to cushion the fall (either that or i dindt want to get my bottom all dirty...i still dont know) either way in the process I hurt my wrist pretty badly! Actually at the time i didnt feel anything but later on the swelling kinda let me know something was wrong. It was pretty funny so naturally I laughed. You see I have a problem if someone falls in front of me I laugh, if I fall I laugh....I cant really control it. I also hit my knee on the bed frame and yes it is also swollen! Aside from my unfortunate mishaps we had a pretty good time....we saw the cute sheeps, the turkeys, the dirty pigs, well all the animals you can expect to see at a farm! I have to say though that the highlight of this lil trip (for me anyways) was imitating the sound the turkey makes cuz everytime I did it they would all do it it was like we were speaking the same language..haha
We walked a lot, slept a lot, ate a lot and we also did some fishing :) All in all a fun weekend..aside from my but thats what i get for being clumsy. Hopefuly next time we go we can actually visit the beautiful waterfall which is over 30 meters high :) and I´ll take pics to show you all!!!!!!!!

Happy Reading
happy writing!

Friday, June 24, 2011


This weekend I´ll be going to my in-laws farm!! Now I dont really like the farm, because there is nothing to do...well now you are staring at your computer screen wondering if I´ve lost my mind...nothing to do at a farm?? crazy right?! There are lots of things to do if you like to go fishing, riding, walking, etc... But I do not like any of those things! The only thing I love to do there is to eat and sleep!!! I know I´m soooo boring; I just dont have the patience to go fishing (i´ve tried!), I dont have the courage to go riding, I´m afraid of horses (ever since superman fell from one...), and I can walk anywhere. But this time I´m excited to go cuz we are going to visit the waterfall!!!!! YAY! which includes a lot of walking and riding on a tractor! LOL yes a tractor! we are going all the way! It also includes me jump walking through the woods because I´m sooo afraid of snakes. But its always worth it when we get there, its simply beautiful! Also this time I´ll take pictures and tell you all about my lil upcoming adventure =) Before it begins I have to do soooo many things...Wash the bathrooms, clean the house, and do tons of loads of laundry.... so looking forward to that....NOT! I better be going if I want to finish all today =)

Happy reading
Happy writing!!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I love

I love watching my kids
I love the sound of the train
I love the smell of the rain
I love the sight of the night sky
I love taking long hot showers
I love hearing the hooster in the morning (I can hear them when I visit my in-laws farm)
I love being able to sleep for as long as I want
I love to eat
I love coke
I love to read
I love to write
I love the cinema
I love meeting new people
I love my family and friends
I love sunny days
I love rainy days when I have nothing to do and I can just sit around with a good book to read
I love to travel
I love old music
I love I love Lucy
I love red dry wine

One of those days...

Today I did not feel like going to work, but I did anyways...(actually I had to)
The whole time I was there I was daydreaming about being somewhere else, I do that a lot; daydream I mean. I picture my self in a book, in another country, in the life of someone else, etc. I also think about how things would´ve turned out if I made different choices in life, or what would  happen if I won a large amount of I said its my dream and I can do whatever I want, be whomever I want :) . Thats the beauty of day dreaming you can do anything you want, in it you are the boss :)

As always
Happy reading
Happy writing!

Saturday, June 18, 2011

The almost getting SHOT story!

Unfortunately I still dont have the pictures I wanted to put on this post.... *hint* *hint* Chris!!! As soon as my dear friend sends them to me I´ll post them here. Before I tell you about me almost getting shot I want you to understand my state of mind at the time of the incident. Few days before my house was shot at I went ghost hunting at a graveyard with some friends of mine. Chris had done this many a times before and told me about so I thougtht it would be cool to give it a try. There was one particular spot in the graveyard where I felt a was a heavy feeling so I asked my Chris to take a picture of me, when we saw the picture we saw this big smoky area besides me; now no one was smoking and either ways the smoke coming from that area was too great to be from a cigarette. Needless to say I was spooked, y was I the only one feeling it and y was it around me?! After about 2 hours we left with some recordings and some pics, all really creepy.

Well that being said I can now tell you what was my first thought was when i heard the "BOOM" without you being like "what?" It was a few days after the graveyard happening, I was going to make popcorn and as I was walking towards my pantry a few inches in front of me the frame I had hung on my wall shattered making a loud noise, so I stopped and looked at it and the frame was still hanging only the glass part broke.
So, naturally the first thing that came to my head was GHOST! So I pick up my phone and start dialing Chris while its ringing I scream at the top of my lungs for my roommate Sam, she comes running down the stairs and I tell her what I thought happened, while she is looking over the frame and shattered glass I´m telling Chris what happened, and if it could be because of our lil adventure in the graveyard. Sam yells "Jen its a bullet!!!" I say goodbye to Chris ( who is now freaking out .) Besides my pantry door is the basement door, and stuck to my basement door is a bullet! Now I´m really freaking out, I mean who could possibly want me dead??? Sam calls 911, and they get there within 4 minutes I let the cops in and explain the whole ordeal as best as I can.....there were two cops inside the house and the others looking for the culprit or culprits outside.

After I finished telling him all I knew the young cop looks at me and says "Dont you remember me" so I stare at his face trying to place it but I couldn´t for the life of me. So i tell him "no, should I?" And he responds " I was one of the cops there the night your car rolled in the ocean" so then I remember him... he was the one asking me all the questions that night too... Now I tried not to laugh, he had that lil knowing smile on his face and I´m thinking of course he knows my car didnt just roll into the ocean.... ( you see that is the story I told the cops, I said I was going home from work and I was really tired and I had to pee so I stopped and thought I had put my car on P but it was really on N so it just rolled down the ramp into the ocean. Which is all unbelievable because of course the restaurant was closed as was everything, but they bought it :) or at least they pitied me so they pretendend. (there is another post where I mention this story called Time Flies---Edited.) So I very serious said "oh yea I remember you now" and he said " Man aren´t you lucky" ... funny!

Okay back to the whole almost getting shot story... Forensics came and got the bullet out and did all the things they were supposed to do. The guy then tells me that if I was one second ahead of where I was the bullet would have hit me and from the height of where the bullet got stuck it would have hit the side of my head!!!!!!!!!!! And that it was a hollow-point bullet.... I was like "a what now?" he explained to me that a hollow-point bullet expands upon entering the target disrupting more tissue as it travels the target!!!!!!! YES I WAS FREAKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The cops that were searching for the culprit/s found them! They told me that behind my house (my house sits on a land of a lil over an acre) there is a shooting range, and that 2 brothers were shooting in an unpermitted location one of the brothers was 16 and the other18. So you can guess which one said it was his fault!... Of course the 16 yr old (now that i dont believe.) Either way everyone there was amazed that the bullet travelled that far and dodged soooooo many trees just to accidently hit my house and almost kill me!!!!

So thats the story of Jennifer Papps (me) almost getting shot by a hollow-point bullet no less!

Happy Reading
Happy Writing!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

If only wishes would come true

I wish, I wish
I could lay down and rest
no worries no care
I wish I wish
I could get up and work
no guilt, no rush
I wish I wish
I could be a better person
no judgment, no flaw
I wish I wish
I could have more time
no hurry, no fear
I wish I wish
I could see the stars to make my wishes upon
no stars, no moon
Only darkness tonight...

Happy Reading
Happy Writing

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

7 Totally random facts!!!

I´ve been tagged so here are the 7 random facts I thought really interesting...If I leave a comment in your blog, you´ve been tagged and you have to post 7 random facts...of your choice :)

  1. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning. That´s why I´m always sleepy in the mornings ;) And I guess I´ll always be because I dont eat fruits :/
  2. Arnold Schwarzenegger´s famous line in the movie The Terminator "I´ll be back" was originally scripted as "I´ll come back." Boy oh boy am I glad they changed it! I love that line and use it very often :)
  3. Flossing daily will reduce your risk of getting heart disease. WOW now that surprised me! Who would´ve though! I know that having a glass of dry red wine is good :) now flossing???
  4. Licking a stamp leads t the consumption of 1/10 of a calorie. I´ll never lick another stamp! Now thats crazy!
  5. You share your birthday with about 9 million other people in the world. Gosh and I thought It was my own special day... :/
  6. During yor lifetime, you will produce 25,000 quarts of saliva, which is enough to fill two swimming pools. How cool is that?
  7. Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovlcanoconiosis means lund disease. It is 45 letters long and its the longest english word! I really almost felt like putting a comma there
I hope you´ve enjoyed my 7 random facts :)

Happy Birthday!!

Six years ago my youngest son was born, he weighed 8'3 and was 21 inches long! Big boy! He is a very loving, energetic, intelligent, creative kid! It amazes me how WELL he draws! I couldn´t be more proud to be his mother!
Daniel 6 days old

Danny 2 months old

Danny 3 months
Johnny and Danny
Danny 6 months
Danny 4 months

Danny 11 months

Danny, me and daddy at his 1 yr b-day party
Daniel 5 yrs old

Danny 06/14/2011


Sunday, June 12, 2011

Don´t you?

Don´t you hate when you forget what it is you were looking for?

Don´t you hate when someone starts talking to you and calls you by your name but you can´t remember theirs, so all you got is that stupid smile on...and all you say is "yea" "ok" "neat" stupid words to fill in the gap.

Don´t you hate when you come home and you go straight to the fridge to heat up the leftovers, only to find out that someone got to them before you?

Don´t you hate that when you are trying to find something it almost seems like that objects has legs and is really just playing hide and seek?

Don´t you hate when said objects appear only when you no longer need them?? And it amazes me that they are in the most weird places...

Don´t you hate when you have to wake up early the next day and you look at the alarm clock or in most cases ur cell phone and its midnight and you think to urself..."okay i have 6 hours to sleep" the time goes by and you still havent fallen asleep and you look at the clock again and its 1am and you think "okay 5 hours" and sooo on until you just think " damn im screwed."

Don´t you hate when you go into a store and when you are going to the register and they say cash only! i mean who carries chash nowadays

Don´t you hate when u go to the market cuz you need something and you come back with a whole bunch of groceries only to find out that the one thing you needed you didnt buy!

Okay enough hate....pretend all the sentences above begin with "Don´t you love"

P.S. The story about me almost getting shot is coming very soon :)

Happy Reading
Happy Writing!!!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Time flies! Edited

Its a Jennifer.. lol (me)
In exactly 30 days I will turn 26! I cannot believe it, time just flies.
Here are some of the things that has made an impact on my life:
  • Getting married, and having my sons.
  • Driving my car into the ocean (I thought it was a puddle, it was raining I had a few too add that to turning into the parking lot of a restaurant that had a ramp to unload crabs and you get me me in the ocean with my car!)
  • Almost getting shot! The bullet that went through the drywall came very close to hitting me! I thought it was a i had been ghost hunting the previous week...well I think this story deserves its own post! So check in later for it :)
  • Of course meeting all my wonderful friends! P.S You know who you are :)
  • Going bankrupt in 2 countries...COMIC!
  • Moving to another country
  • Being away from my wonderful frieds :(((
  • My journey to and from the crazy world of drugs, sex and rock and roll
  • Turning my life around through Jesus Christ, my saviour!
Some things I´ve learned
  1. Never listen to the bad things people say about you, only listen if it will help you improve yourself
  2. Its not why or how you fall, but how you get up that counts! And when you are down there is only one way to go and thats up! And when making your way up dont take the elevator or the escalator take the stairs...step by step you will get there! Wiser..
  3. That I really dont know anything, but Im having fun living and learning!

Anyways as Im in a hurry..(really need to get ready for work) it will b all for now :)

Happy reading
Happy writing!!!!!!!!!


Two dreams about tornadoes in the past month, what does it mean???? And no i have not been watching Twister, although that was a great movie :) Weird... if anyone knows what it means please do tell!

On another note Miss cranky pants has left the building!!! OHOOOO! I have been soo cranky this week, and I have no idea why?? If I didnt know any better I would say I was bipolar...wait I dont know any better.
Ummmm...maybe I should go to a psychiatrist, then again maybe not. LOL I tell you these mood swings are craAzy!

Happy Reading
Happy writing!

Monday, June 6, 2011

Amazing Dogs

I have a yellow, rescued, big sized, blind dog
Great watch dog :) Love him!

A black, rescued, middled sized, crippled dog
Sweetie cuz thats what he is!
And a white, store bought, small sized, singing dog (who thinks he is a person)

So thats me with my singing dog...Should we try out for American Idol as a duet?? LOL

Happy Reading, Happy writing!!!

Its a monday!

This morning at 11ish i dragged myself out of bed.
Did not brush my hair
Did not brush my teeth
Did not have the time to because as always
I was running late.
Went to the neighbor´s house to get the my kids
Who were happily playing on their bikes.
Of course the neighbor stared at me
I looked exactly the way one should after rolling of the bed.

They will get use to it as it happens a lot in the mornings I over sleep.
Made the beds, washed the dishes and I felt like something was missing...
Then I came to the computer and decided to write a post.
Nothing is amiss now :)

Happy Reading
Happy writing!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Through the years

In high school I had no labels, I wanst the most popular girl in school but I wasnt invisible either. I got along with everyone, had lots of friends (I was friends with everyone, no matter their "label"), I use to be in the volleyball team and I really have fond memories of my high school years. Sifting through my stuff I found this letter, it was from one of my friends, he use to type a letter each week and give it to some of the people he knew. I wish I had kept all of them, but at least one made it through the years...and this is what it said exactly in his words:
Hey Remember me? I´m that guy, you know. Well you probably won´t admit to knowing me but you do. I´m destroyed every day by look people give me. Reopen wounds from love, make my heart bleed. Life seems meaningless. Yes I´ve told you this before but it seems to get worse every day. What does life do to those people who expect every little thing? Life destroys my feelings and my soul. How do I live on in my weakened condition? I don´t understand how my life can be so messed up. I don´t realize thing until it´s too late. Why, why do I suffer? Why do I have this pain? You don´t know this but every night I come home I cry. I cry for all the people like me and the things the put up with to save face. I am not doing it anymore. I put make up on my face  and I act and dress crazy because that´s who I am. That´s how I see myself. An outsider looking in on all those pretty little dolls. The people who do all the things people expect thm to do. Not me not anymore. These feelings burn inside me as if they are burning in my flesh. Kiling me and my life.
I am not normal but who is. We are all people but we are all different. So there is no normal. Destroy my life and destroy my feelings but you´ll never destroy my hopes and dreams. You´ll never destroy me as a person. I´ll stand tall as long as I have to in order to live out my life for what I believe in.You´ll never kill me, only I can do that.

                                               Jacob  ---> ( I didnt use his real name)

Now as I look back and read this letter I ask myself what did I do for him? Was I nice enough? Did Ihelp him in some way? I sure hope I did! Back then I was so busy being a teen and all that goes along with that, but sure hope I was in some way good to him. I hope to find him someday! If you are still in school please be nice to everyone!

Happy reading,
happy writing!

Friday, June 3, 2011

A good deed, INDEED!!!!

Okay so I have been dying to get home and tell you all about my good deed! Remember my post called Pay it forward? In the end I said I would do a good deed to a total stranger then post about it. Well I finally did it!!! I went to work today and everything was the same old, fry the churros fill them and give it to the customer. Today the spot we were working at is a very busy avenue ( we sell churros from our car.) 
That´s our churros car
 While I was frying the churros there was this homeless dog trying to cross the street
Very busy Avenue
well needless to say he was run over!!! OMG it made such a loud noise!!! The poor dog is lying there on the street and I´m so upset over the whole thing (even worse the car that ran him over did NOT stop) that i run and try to stop the cars so that this guy that saw the whole thing could pick him up and put him on the sidewalk.  When we finally got him to safety, he was bleeding badly!! I couldnt stop working so I told my husband to call our friend and ask him to drive the dog to the vet. Meanwhile this car that was also driving by when the accident happened returned, they also wanted to help the dog ! A very nice couple with a beautiful baby girl! I was so happy to see that there are still people that care! They went to the vet with our friend and then they brought him back to us because they dont have the space to accommodate the dog and we do. When they came back they told us that he only cut a vein close to his leg!! I couldnt believe it, I mean that dog was literally born again! Now we have brought him home with us, we are going to nurture him back to health and of course keep him :) Here is a pic of him, we dont know what to name him yet any suggestions???
This is him before we took him to the vet :(
When he came back from the vet!

In front of the clinic
So yes my good deed to a total stranger went to a homeless dog :) Well he is not homeless anymore :)

Happy reading, happy writing

Happy things :) TOP 10

While looking through some blogs I saw a post that I really enjoyed, the blogger posted 10 things that made her happy :) I can´t remember the name of the blog but she said to do the same. So here is the 10 things that makes me happy:

Knowing there is a God--> It gives me hope and meaning
Gelson--> For being there
My Sons--> My greatest accomplishments. The reason I get up each day.
My family--> Dysfunctional, crazy, all over the world, but great people truly :)
My Friends--> For putting up with my craziness
Reading--> I love to lose myself in a book, escape reality.
Writing--> A passion of mine
The sound of the train--> Makes me wonder where its coming from, where its going...and from there my imagination just takes me on a ride :)
A clean house--> oh i know im a freak, I suffer from OCD. ;) but there is nothing like a clean house.
Rainy days->when you are able to stay home and do whatever Sunny days-> anytime :)

Now what make you happy?

Happy reading, happy writing!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

What do YOU think?

As I went about my day something kept nagging me, does everything that happens to us "pre-written" or not? I mean we are where we are; wherever that may be because of the choices we made in life, correct? I think so. But what if we made different choices and still ended up making the same mistakes or just ended up in the same place, only taking a different route to get there? I putting it literally into perspective, say you want to go to,  dont know say its walmart you could probably get there by at least 2 different ways; one could have more trafic lights, the other could take you longer to get there but you would still get there either way right?
What do you think?

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I Need..

First I need a...
Followed by...

Then I need to catch up on some...

And it would be icing on the cake if I could take a....
Because I really am....

Literally dragging myself....

The end!

Happy Reading, happy writing!!!!!!

TOP 10/ Love is in the air!!!

Top Ten Reasons why I fell in love with my then-to-be hubby
  1. He bought me a coconut
  2. He bought me a watermellon
  3. He didn´t give up on making me fall in love with him for 2 YEARS!!!
  4. He drove more than 1400 miles (to and from) just to see me for a few days!
  5. He was and still is a man of God
  6. He openend the car door for me, he was and still is a gentleman (at least when he wants to be) :)
  7. He drove 700 miles with a bouquet of roses with the AC blasting so they wouldnt die, just for me :)
  8. He took me everywhere he possibly could and made it all romantic!
  9. He listened, truly listened
  10. He was and still is very giving to everyone!
Top 10 reasons why my love is in an eternal growing stage

  1. He is a man of God,  he enjoys doing his work!
  2. He is very hard working, always thinking of providing for his family.
  3. He is the BEST father my children could possibly have, he dotes on them.
  4. He teaches my kids according to the word of God, and prays with them daily.
  5. He is a great cook, and he does it with love for his family
  6. He never complains about helping me around the house(well almost never)
  7. He is like Bob the builder.....he can fix anything
  8. He is generous beyond words
  9. He is constantly suprising me, sometimes with an unexpexted gift, and lots of times with kind, loving words.
  10. He is my BEST friend, my confidant, the person who is besides me no matter what! Even when I´m losing my mind and I´m very cranky he´s still there for me!!!
  11. I know I said top 10 but I had to include that he takes such good care of me when I´m sick :)
Love is something that has to cultivated, and thats what we try to do here in our home. We sit down to have meals together, we have our devotionals, and most important we still go out on dates :)

So if you are married what do you do to cultivate that love?
P.S the concept of this blog was taken from 4 of us blog.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Pay it forward!

Love is a beautiful thing! The true beauty of a person lies in the capacity of that person´s ablility to love!
Those two sentences above I wrote as a comment on my friend´s blog ( 4 of us) and I just wanted to share it here on my blog because the more I think about it the more I see the truth in those words.

One is only as good as one tries to be,
One is only loved as much as he loves,
One only receives as much as he gives (--> and this doesnt mean you will receive from the person you gave it could be the same person, but as it happens you will most likely receive from others)

If only we could love eachother, truly love without any taints... I can only imagine a world where its people honestly loved one another. That´s why in Matthew 22:39 Jesus says that the second greatest commandment is: " Love your neighbor as yourself." It´s easy to love those who love us....

One of my favorite movies is Pay it forward, its not really about love as much as it is
about doing good deeds for total strangers just cause!
So let´s pay it forward!  This is what I ask of everyone this week do a good deed and then
comment here about it :) Tomorrow I´ll do it and then comment here to tell you how it went! It should be fun :)

Happy Reading
Happy Writing

Thank you for coming :) --- Edited

I have noticed that my blog has been visited by people from other countries, so I want to give a shout out to Finland, Greece, Albania, Georgia, Brazil, South Aftica, Russia, Malaysia, Angola, Australia, India, Germany, Indonesia, Netherlands, Croatia, Austria, Bulgaria, Italy, USA, Turkey, Pakistan, Portugal, Denmark, Philippines,Nicaragua , Ukraine, Peru, Singapore, Slovakia, China, Hong Kong, Fance, South Korea, Belgium, Egypt, Algeria, Qatar, Latvia, Fijji, Mauritius, Cambodia, Costa Rica, Nepal, Dominican Republic, New Zealand, Afghanistan, Kuwait, Romania, United Arab Emirates, and the UK! Thanks for taking an interest and I hope you are enjoying the blog. I would love if you all would leave a comment so that I could get to know you all through your blogs :) Look foward to hearing from all of you and going to your blogs!

Happy Reading! Happy writing!
Jennifer Papps

And the twitching continues....

For over a month now my left eye has been twitching and it has now come to a point
where i just want to rip it out of my face!!!! I can´t stand it anymore, i have done some research as to why
this would happen and this is a list of probable causes:
  • Stress
  • Tiredness
  • Eye strain
  • Caffeine
  • Alcohol
  • Dry eyes
  • Nutritional imbalances
  • Allergies
So i have narrowed down to 5 possibilities, out of 8 thats not much help! If you are wondering the
first 5 are the ones i have pinned down as the probable cause.
Now this is some things i have been told to do by my some buddies at FB...

     * Hit my head on something as hard as i can
     *Take a nice long bubble bath while drinking some wine
     *Sleep and try not to worry so much

When i first read advice #1 I LOL but now that the twitching hasnt gone away and I´m very close to ripping right out altogether I´m finally giving it some thought...and NO I´m not LOL anymore.
When I read advice #2 I was delighted, who wouldnt enjoy a nice long bubble bath?? wine too?! just icing on the cake! Problem with that is that I don´t have a bath I thought maybe if I take a plastic chair and put under the shower and just sit there?! Like a waterfall?? while holding my glass of wine away from my body so that the waterfall doesn´t literally fall in my glass...haha I know
So when I read my last advice I was like "yea, sleep! I love to sleep" then I remembered I have 2 kids at home who likes to wake up early, so that went out the window as well. As for not worring all I gotta say is HAHA, I wish!

Anywhoos now you see why I´m very close to hitting something against my head very HARD indeed. Its either that or ripping it out!

Friday, May 27, 2011

A simple Cup

So I´ve decided to look at the bright side of things....
Look at the cup half full kinda of thing.
But I seem to be going through some withdrawals.
Yesterday when i got a phone call from a friend
asking me if i could watch her kid overnight,
(cup half full)---> instead of thinking yea it will b good cuz when i need it she will do the same for me,
(cup half empty)--->I tought oh man there goes my peace..
(cup half full)--->Now her kid is an awesome very sweet kid as are my kids
(cup half empty)---> but when u put 3 sweet kids together things just seem to happen unexpectedly.
(cup haf empty)--->And when I arrived home and all 3 were still unbathed i thought geez here i go, Im gonna have to help all of them bathe and put pjs on,
(cup half full)---> what i should have thought was, so nice to see them all happy and  healthy with all their homeworks done.
(cup half empty)--->So after they were in their pjs I turned the TV on so they could quietly watch a movie only to find out that the cable was out, so then i thought crap i cant believe my lack of luck
(cup half full)--->and what i should have thought was great I´ll just read to them spend some quality time and then put them to bed...and at least we still have the
So i guess this quest on becoming a cup half full kinda of gal will be more difficult than I had imagined!!!
Don´t I wish!

Thursday, May 26, 2011


Today i woke up from a weird, but cool dream i was having where i had turned into a vampire; now u might say im watching too many vamps movies or reading, but i havent done either in quite sometime. But i woke up cuz i was having terrible cramps, u know the type women get when its their time of the month?!... SO im guessing thats y  i had that dream about becoming a vamp, kind of makes

Today i dont feel like going to work, in fact i feel like doing absolutely nothing!


Have the luxury to do nothing so...

Im going to work! Against my will. UGHHHHH!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Naive much????

So last night while working something happened that was a lil embarrassing for me. Now in order for u to understand ill explain what i do; my husband and I sell churros (its a spanish dessert) really delish! Well you have 2 choices of fillings, caramel or chocolate and 4 choices of toppings peanuts, coconut, chocolate sprinkles or colored sprinkles. So back to the story....last night my husband left me alone for like 10 min to go to the gas station, meanwhile this guy came over to buy 2 churros so i told him our choices of fillings, he chose caramel for both, when i got to telling him our choices of toppings he said "oh, no peanuts for me, they are bad for me" so i very innocently said " yeah, lots of people have allergies to peanuts" at this point he started laughing and I had this very stupid look on my face (u know the look you get when u dont understand whats going on, but everyone is laughing?) so he looks at me and says (still laughing) " i dont have allergies, it was just a joke" (he keeps on laughing) so now im really looking confused and a lil awkward cuz now in my head im thinking that maybe what he meant was that peanuts gives him a stomachache. Then he says he will have the peanut topping. So with all the dignity that i can muster I go and make his churros.....(he´s  still chuckling.) I was feeling so awkward that i gave him the wrong change, when he points it out i´m even more embarrassed...finally he leaves and my husband comes back, I told him the whole ordeal and he just looked at me and said "oh, Jennifer you dont know what they say about peanuts and men?" i was like "no, what?" to my frustration he just laughs...AHHHH so later he explains to me that its supposed to help.....well u know.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

More Love

I refuse to love if love is not what i dream of
I would rather spend my days loving my dreams of love
Than live to hate what i love most.


Love me not with all you heart but
Love me with all your soul
For your heart will perish but
Your sould will live through eternity

Seek me not in your grieve but
Seek me in you happiness
For your grieve may kill our love, but you happiness will keep it alive

Hate death not because he was selfish but
Hate death for he has fallen in love wth me
Know that when you feel a gentle wind touching your body
It is my love kissing you in silence.


When he was young, he had many dreams
Dreams that he knew would not become reality
Early on he had to take on a grown man´s job
Throughout his young life he already felt like an old soul
Both his body and mind were well advanced for his young age
He did find someone to love, to share
But his lost childhood hunted him
Now his love is gone
The person in the mirror staring back at him is old and wrinkled
A single tear rolls down this person´s face?
He touches that tear, amazed that he was actually the one to have put it there
After all those years he could still feel the pain
He thought was long gone
He went back to bed, lying there waiting
Finally he closed his eyes and saw the light
Lights out; at least in this world.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Legally Blind

Big Tiger
So about 5 months ago we welcomed Big Tiger into our family. He was on the streets my husband found him with no collar, so he brought him home. We saw that he has blind very early on as he would hit his head on every tree stump, trash can, etc on his poor guy. He´s such a loving dog, we couldnt b happier with him....well maybe we could b a lil happier if he didnt shed quite soo much....but no one is perfect. A few days ago by pure coincidence my husband started talking to this guy about dogs and he told him he found a blind dog that looks like a tiger and the other guy said oh i know the dog he escaped from my friend´s house....AH i freaked out at that moment, cuz i was not about to give big tiger up. So i listen to the guy and he said that he was happy he found another family cuz his friend didnt take very good care of big tiger...funny thing his name really was Big tiger :) it was meant to be :) And he also said that his friend got big tiger from a rehab facility. All very interesting.