Sunday, February 12, 2012

How would you feel?

How would you feel?
If someone close to you said:
You look old
Your marriage was a mistake, I did not give you my blessing.
Your a failure
What are you doing with your life?
There is something wrong with you.

Well all those things were said to me in a very nice way, mind you. Yes my mother was very nice
while saying all these things...in her head she was doing me a favor...go figure. I understand where she is coming from, my life is not what i had imagined it would be when i was younger. I dont regret it...because if i did i would then regret the birth of my sons; and I DONT...I cant picture my life without them in it. I love them with all my heart, if nothing else at least i got two things right in my life and thats my babies! This last week has been very hard on me, one of the reasons you already know.. I guess what she said made me rethink lots of things... Im so lost right now, and all my friends are too busy for me....here i am surrounded by people and i feel soo DAMN alone! but the people that matter are nowhere to be found! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

8 comments:

  1. <3 I'm sorry you feel so alone. If you lived closer, I'd take you out for a cup of coffee or a bite to eat so you could just talk. <3 <3

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  2. Thanks Cammie! That means a lot to me! I wish I lived closer!!!

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  3. Maybe we can go for coffee, one day! I'll come to Brasil. :)

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  4. YAY!! do come!!! PLZ! Of course im going back too though =) so either way we will have that cup of coffee!!!!

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  5. Jenny, sometimes a person can say some things and not know they are being used by devil to try to detroy you. So dont let yourself be sad about it. Let me say: You DO NOT look old (you look like britney spears, for God sake!); Your marriage was not a mistake: your husband was there for you in the hardests moments and you were there for him, marriage is loving each other even in the hard times, and I know you guys loev each other, and as you said: the most precious gift you had with your marriage is your children; And GOD gave you His blessing, that's all you need. You are not a failure, and you (and I!!!) are figuring out what to do with our lives, and who can blame us? We are young! We CAN have this time of not knowing what we are doing, and NOBODY can say anything cuz even thou our children are fine and we are taking very good care of them, without nobody's help! And YES there is something wrong with you! YOU ARE CRAZY! Thank God! Cuz if you were normal we would not be friends, crazy people like each other, and that's what makes you so fun! You're not alone honey, I can see you have lots of friends but some of them are really far and in the minute you say you need company I'll just leave everything I have to do behind just to tell you some j0okes to make you laugh! And I'm sure all of them love you and wish they could be here for you! Love you Jenny!

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  6. Thanks Barb!! Im lucky I have so many good friends that care about me =) thats a blessing really! Yes we are both crazy, haha but fun like u said. I was in shock really when she said that, i let it go on one ear and out the other. But apparently it stuck a lil bit... Thank you for being a GREAT friend! Love you!

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  7. ok.. I'm el'crapo of friends... I have been to busy.. I'm sorry. call me tomorrow and we will talk.

    EU TE AMO

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