According To Urban Dictionary

    JENNIFER

"A funny girl, really smart, and usually doesn´t act her age (wether it be acting older or younger.) Jennifer´s have amazing eyes, and love to laugh and smile. They generally enjoy the finer things in life. They have trouble showing their feelings, and take sometime to warm up to new people. They don´t trust easily, but that shouldn´t stop you from trusting them, they are very trustworthy. They need someone who will listen to them and give their honest opinion. Jennifer´s are very blunt, and speak their mins often. They are caring and usually very sexy. They know how to flirt in a very suddle way that drives men crazy. They know how to get what they want. Jennifer´s are very good friends."

That´s what my name means according to Urban Dictionary...what does it say about your name?
Go and check it out it´s fun, let me know if its true for you :)

xoxo
Jenny

Why?

I like to think of myself as a judge free type of person, and in most cases I am. Of course I have my moments that without even thinking it through I might judge someone else...but i always regret and repent. For others to judge people like its their right as if they are better than someone else..is beyond me. Clearly I don´t agree with everyone´s actions or choices but I respect them all the same (so long as its not causing harm to others.) Wouldn´t it be wonderful if we could just remain judge free? There are so many people worried about other people´s lives, and what for? Are they just bored with their own lives that they feel the need to talk crap about others? I say before pointing a finger at others, take a look at you own life.. but thats just me.

Such is me

Like a caged bird,
A held back smile,
An unshed tear,
A repressed desire,
Such is me, trying to break free,
Freedom to fly high and far
Freedom to laugh as hard as I can
Freedom to cry all my unshed tears
Freedom to seek and achieve all my desires.
Such is me, trying to break free..

If I could be an animal, an eagle I would be!

Oh yea, thats right!

I will be all by myself for 3 dayssss!!!! I will not have to cater to anyone else´s needs, only my own!!!!
Big PlAnS, big PlAnS I AM sooooo SIKED!!!!!!!!! I will tell you every thing that i do in these 3 days! Just a BTW I DO LOVE my family!!!! Though I´m looking forward to some ME time =) YAY!

There will be a lot of sleeping
There will be a lot of eating
There will be a lot of watching TV
There will be a lot of surfing the net
There will be a lot of talking with friends
There will be a lot of reading
ETC, ETC!!!

Doesn´t this move you?!

Sitting in my car waiting for my husband to buy his so wanted car radio, I saw something very moving happening outside. It´s a cold saturday morning and this man is out with his 3 little girls collecting recyclables. Before I tell you about this scene that I so happen to witness, I need to explain something; here in Brazil there are many people who go out collecting recyclabes they have this wagon/cart they use to put it all, they  litterally pull wagons/carts all day despite the weather in order to feed their families.



This is what I´m talking about, here they call them "catadores."
This is not the picture of the man I´m talking about.

 Well now you can better understand why this was so moving to me. This is what I saw.... The man parks his wagon on the side of the street so he can collect the recyclables people have left out, his three little girls run into this bakery to ask for food, and they come out empty handed. The girls are about 8, 6 and 3 they are wearing clothes that they have long outgrown  (and it is cold!) Their father  hold their hands to cross the street, the youngest two go with him and the oldest one stays behind with the cart. She picks up this blue dress; that I assume someone gave her, and with the biggest smile she puts the dress in front of her little 8 year old body and she dances with joy, she was litterally dancing. A worker from the bakery comes out and gives her a bag with 3 sandwiches. When the father comes back the oldest girl hand each of her sisters a sandwich (she had some trouble handing the sandwich because their dog wanted to grab it from her hand.) The youngest girl tries to give her father a piece and he refuses, but after much persistence he finally takes a little bite of the sandwich. The father starts pulling the wagon and they leave that street.

The whole time the girls had smiles on their faces, as sad I as I was to see them it was when I looked at their father that my heart broke. I could see the pain in his face...all I could see was pain....and of course the love and care he had for his children. Yes it was the love he had for them that made him suffer. Every parent want whats best for their children.....

Jen

Birds are chirping!

I took it this morning! this lil guy might just be the reason i woke up in a good mood !!

Its funny how most of the time I wont remember what i wore the previous day, what I did, what I ate, who I saw, but I´ll remember things from waaay back in the day. I was talking to a friend about 9/11 and we both remembered exactly what we were doing when it happened.... and I realized that everyone I have talked to about that day remembers exactly what they were doing! Memory is a funny thing, some repress unwanted memories (without inteding to!), some like myself work real hard on remembering the good memories and forgetting the not so good! Sometimes a smell will trigger a memory, sometimes its a song, how amazingly complex our mind is!!!

Well enough of that, for the simpler things in life now... I woke up at 7AM today! YAY me! You see I´m not a morning person so i´m  excited I woke up early with...

wait for it....
wait for it...

A GREAT MOOD! I´ll be able to get sooo many things done in the morning! I wont be rushing like a maniac this morning :) I´m in such a great mood that I think, actually I know I will make a lasagna for lunch =) Dont know what it is but i woke up in a great mood and full of hope...Just plain happy or content? Dunno but its a gReAt feeling!!! Sooo GOOD MORNING TO ALL!!!!

View from my back yard !

xoxo
Jen

I wanted..

Growing up I wanted to be a lot of things, but these are the ones that I really ReAlLy wanted...

Okay so instead of Captain America pretend it says Jennifer Papps :)

Being an FBI agent was the first thing I remember I wanted to be....I still remember the day this police officer came to our school on career day, and I remember thinking yes thats what I want! I want to be a detective and work for the FBI.

Then I remember becoming obsessed with the night sky/outer space.... so I decided I wanted to be an astronaut.

Yes, then came acting

Later on I decided I wanted to try acting... I mean who wouldnt want to be someone else?! I could be anyone!!! I could have many different professions, live in many different places, learn and live in so many different cultures...

Finally I wanted to be a writer




I found that If I became a writer all my dreams could come true, all that I ever wanted..I could create I could write! I could be an FBI agent,  an astronaut, an actress anything I wanted I could have through my writing. The opportunities would be endless!