Oh yea it´s the weekend!

I will not rhyme,
I will not whine,
I will simply write..

Okay so now I´ll shall begin
And I´ll do it with my weekend
It has been wild/fun to say the least
I had the chance to get to know three awesome people this weekend
One of them being my friend ( and ill just come out and say it..my awesome friend´s father-in-law)
And two German guys =) Nick and Michael!!!! Although i tried to learn some German I´m afraid I have
failed BADLY!!! hey KUDOS FOR TRYING!! Anyways Hey NICK AND MICHAEL! I had
fun getting to know you both and a little bit of your culture this weekend...ALL the mime and trying to talk in two different languages included!!! AWESOME!! IF you guys ever come back you MUST come visit!!! It has been a great weekend! So many emotions in play... ALL i gots to say is I´m lucky! I have  beautiful people in my life! I´ll end it with this:
Do NOT ever settle for less, I wrote this ages ago...have posted this months ago but IT has
REMAINED true...
I REFUSE TO LOVE
IF LOVE IS NOT WHAT I DREAM OF..
I WOULD RATHER
LOVE MY DREAMS OF LOVE
THAN LIVE TO HATE
WHAT I LOVE MOST

PEACE!
Happy reading
Happy writing everyone!

Mask

                                 
Its easy to smile and laugh
when all is going your way

Its easy to say pretty words

when all is okay

Its easy to give advice to other people´s problems

Because you are not the one going through it
It is even easy to pretend you´re okay

for the benefit of putting out a strong front

for the benefit of others....

But when you get right down to it

In the end of the day, when all you have to face is yourself

And you can´t lie or pretend because you know better

What then? where is the mask we all wear when

we actually need it? when we need it to save us from ourselves??

Move on or fight?

So I´ve been wondering, for no particular reason..i guess. You know how some people are just at the right place at the right time? How they manage to turn a small idea into a fortune? Or maybe even their action?Unlike others who work just as hard (if not harder) and never get anywhere... Maybe love works the same way, maybe some are destined to be with the person their were meant for...and some just keep searching or settle for what they can/did get. I mean who knows why life has such an ironic sense of humor, even cruel at times?! Do we accept this and move on and just play the cards we were dealt? Or we go to the mattresses?! In other words we fight until we get it right?!

Too late?

Where are you when I need you the most?
There are things that needs to be said
Things I need to get off my chest.
You are my one and only, even though
I am not yours...
Sad as this might be, I cannot let it go
You have made my heart prisoner of
my everlasting love.
Everything happens for a reason and
Even though I met you too late, I cant regret it
For I would have never met you otherwise
My only regret is not having the courage
To tell you how I felt, better yet how I feel
And will always feel.....

Turning point, for me at least =)

A new year has begun,
Though I have not made any resolutions
I have decided to not worry about yesterday
Not overthink what tomorrow might bring
Only enjoy every moment of my present day...
Realizing that today is a gift, one we must not take for granted
And to be able to live the present with those we love most is
Simply wonderful!

This I my wish for all my blogger friends! Happy 2012!

"Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course?
Each of us has such a bank. It's name is TIME.
Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off ...as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose.
It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.
If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "tomorrow."
You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success!
The clock is running!! Make the most of today.

To realise the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.

To realise the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realise the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realise the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realise the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who just missed a train.

To realise the value of ONE SECOND, ask someone who just avoided an accident.

To realise the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask the person who won a silver medal at the Olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have! And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with. And remember time waits for no one.

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why its called the present. "

Yes, I have been MIA, I was supposed to move to another state.. I packed my whole house, all for nothing... The apartment we were supposed to move in didnt work out in the end. Now I have a packed house which i have to unpack...sadly! Gelson ( husband) will go without us now to work and we will stay till we are able to rent another apartment. Gosh Im sick of all this moving around! The uncertainty is killing me, Im beat, Im tired, Im giving up... Im desperate all i want, all i want is peace of mind....of spirit. Im broken and cannot be fixed. If only I knew where the roads I taken would lead me to when I was younger, fuck yea I would have changed paths!